Blogging can be a double-edged sword, while I adore sharing
my heart and joy for writing in such an open format it also leads some people
to believe that they know me based off of what I post. Outside of the Lord, my
mother (and my father), my sister and sister-in-law there are only 3 friends of
mine who truly know what is going on in my life and heart on a daily basis.
They know the back story to every post and all the untold stories as well.
I write about what I know so it goes without saying that I
write about my relationship with the Lord and being single. It’s not all I know
but it has certainly been the most prevalent in my life. I’ve been very limited
about what I can write about as far as my jobs go thanks to HIPAA and FERPA
laws. But maybe I’ve been misleading in my posts
here … that my life is one horrific struggle and all I can focus on is getting
married ... that I'll never know any true joy until I am married and a mom. I’ll admit that I am unfortunately one of those who learns better
through times of trial than through times of joy. Those trials lead me to His
throne more than anything else. While I pray that if it is God’s will for me to
marry and if yes, I trust that He will bring it to past, I am more concerned about
living a life that brings glory to Him. I have surrendered my heart, my life
and my relationships to Him over and over again and will continue to for the
rest of my life, married or not.
Please let me make one thing clear … I am so thankful and humbled
by the life the Lord has so graciously given. I am in awe that He would take my
sins upon Himself and die my death so that I could be restored into a right
relationship with the Heavenly Father. I am humbled speechless when I think
about the family He allowed me to be born into and I do not take that spiritual
legacy lightly. The gift of music is just that, a gift, and it is for His glory
only that I use it. I am an honored and willing vessel. I have 7 churches worth
of friendships … 2 – my grandparents attend, 3 - my father pastored, 2 – I joined
myself plus school, college and work friendships. I do not deserve any of these but God, in
His mercy, has bestowed them upon me and I am so grateful.
I don’t ever want to belittle what He has done in my life
but with so many “name it and claim it … prosperity” braggarts, I have never
wanted to come across as someone who boasts in themselves or their things. However, my pastor preached on loving ourselves today … “the new creation in Christ self”
and reminded us that because I will never spend 1 second in Hell I can love
this abundant life that I have been given!! With that in mind, I am going to take
a break from the blog and social media until at least Easter. I would like to
set aside some more study time and work on my writing. I have a few posts on my
heart already but instead of just writing in the heat of the moment I want to take
the time to really develop the post.
I pray you have a blessed March.
I love you all and pray you too find joy on the journey!!
Blessings …
- Melody Faith
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