Well the last few weeks have been very interesting to the say the least. My sweet parents moved to Hernando last Thursday and I am staying at the house until it sells. Obviously we would love to see it sell quickly but I have a very real fear over what will happen when it sells. I have no plans. I tried to make plans and prepare myself for this but I've come to the conclusion there are some things you can't prepare for no matter how much notice you're given.
Right now I find that I am living moment by moment. I know the Lord has a plan for me but I am struggling to see what that plan is. I feel as if the desires of my heart are farther away than they've ever been. Of course it may very well be that the desires of my heart are not His desires for me. To say I am feeling a bit lost would be an understatement.
I am 100% sure that I am in a transitioning season and it's harder than I imagined it would be. I also now understand why the man is called to leave his family and cleave to his wife and why the woman isn't. There really is some truth to "a son is a son till he takes a wife and a daughter is a daughter for the rest of her life." I never imagined myself living in the same city as my parents when I became an adult ... I just didn't imagine it would come about with them moving away from me! I'm so thankful for their precious church and the way they are being loved. And I don't doubt for a moment that this is the right place for them ... I just wish my life were a little more in order. I mean ... come on ... I'm only 28 years old. Ugh. I'm 28 years old and I still don't have it together or even have a glimpse of having it together. This is not what I pictured when I would daydream about my life in High School. But I'm thankful for this life and for the opportunity to experience it.
So why am I writing about this? I am writing this to say that I need your prayers. I need prayers for guidance, direction, wisdom and needs to be met. I know He has everything under control but I am struggling to see it all and please pray for His presence to fill the lonely moments of each day.
As always, I am thankful for you and love you all.
Blessings ...
- Melody
PS ... The Holy Spirit just reminded me of these lyrics from "Christ Is Lifted Up" and I have to share them ... Every song I’ll ever sing, and every gift I’ll ever bring is not enough. It’s not enough. So take my life; it’s Yours, my King. I lay down my everything. Be lifted up. Be lifted up."
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